The past few days have been pretty…=( I don’t know…There is just not enough time in the world. I really can’t explain the frustration and sadness I feel. Sometimes I feel so alone. It is my fault. I block everyone out. I guess it’s just the fact that I feel like everyones trying to get into my head. I just dont want to be too vulnerable. I hate feeling like someone has the ability to tear me down. I haven’t hung out much with anyone :( Super duper sad about that. GEEZ. Work has taken over my life. But I guess, it will also bring me ups later on. I only have til’ wednesday left, then it’s all over. I can’t wait for the last paycheck! =D Tonight is the dave and buster party, and I guess I will clean my car, and then tomorrow I’m going out of town. I had a talk with Ashley and Ayush today, for like 30 minutes. It was pretty cool just talking some people I havent talked to in a while. Felt good. I don’t know whats been up with me lately. I’ve been really cranky(&FYI, I’m not on my monthly) it’s just AHHHHHHH. then I saw him today. Like out of the thousands of people i had to see him. WOW. hahahahaha thast just built up more frustration.
1. i’m SORRY, it hurts to see you still. It does. I still can’t stand looking at you. I really care about you, and when I see the hurt in your eyes, it kills me more and more.
2. I love you BB. I haven’t answered any of your calls, or responded to any comments, and i know its wrong, but basically, i just needed some real alone time. I hate the fact that ive been ignoring you though because i know you’re only here for a few more weeks. =( .. sigh.
